Lol, it’s all good. o/ Gokudera then, here we go!
how I feel about them
MY BABY, COME HERE YOU PERFECT STUPID HUMAN BEING. Um, so yeah, Gokudera is my favoritest favorite, he’s the character that I adore above all others and obsess about, and love every single thing about him and everything he does. To a pathetic degree, really. He can show up in the manga and be kind of hiding out in a panel with like five other characters, and I’ll be like, “OH MY GOD LOOK AT GOKUDERA IN THAT PANEL. LOOK AT HIS HAIR! FUCK, HIS BANGS ARE SO PERFECT. AND LOOK AT HIS FACE! HAHAHA THAT REACTION IS SO LIKE HIM, OH MY GOD, AND IT ALSO SIGNIFIES NO FEWER THAN SEVEN DIFFERENT AND VITALLY IMPORTANT THINGS ABOUT HIS CURRENT CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT, LET ME MUSE ON ALL OF THOSE THINGS FOR A BIT. ALSO HIS FACE IS SO ADORABLE, FUCK.” This is me every time with Gokudera. You may think I’m exaggerating, in which case, please go right on thinking that, as it casts me in a slightly better and less insane light. |D
He’s taken such an incredible journey as a character and I am proud of him in a way that a mother would be proud of her child and which people should really not be proud of fictional characters but I AM ANYWAY! He went from not trusting anyone other than Tsuna, and placing little to no value on his own life and not having any confidence in himself or the world at large, to this budding leader who has learned to rely on the rest of his family and to have much more faith in himself and his own good qualities. It takes a shitload of internal strength to make a breakthrough like that, but he did it. More than any other character in KHR, I think, Gokudera feels things—what I mean by this is that when he gets angry, he gets angry. When he’s scared, he’s terrified (though he usually masks it with more anger). When he’s happy, he’s fucking ecstatic, and when he’s sad, he’s DEVASTATED. Gokudera doesn’t do anything halfway. He cares about things, he cares about way too much, and he puts his all into everything he does. He loves the shit out of his family and he will do anything, ANYTHING, to protect them all. Every single thing Gokudera does basically just makes me sdflaksjf and wonder HOW THE FUCK HE CAN DO IT, because I would be exhausted, caring that much! It nearly broke him down, before he finally found the people who cared about him back. But he made it, and he’s going strong now, and just fkllsdjk this fucking amazing guy. <3
”I wanted to see the fireworks again, so I’ve come back…” GOKUDERA, YOU IDIOT. WHO FUCKING APOLOGIZES FOR NOT DYING? IT’S ONLY YOU, STUPID. This scene breaks my heart on multiple levels, but it’s also a scene filled with hope. On the one hand, this IDIOT CHILD was prepared to get himself killed in a fight if it would mean winning the Storm ring, because he thought that was the most important thing, the most meaningful thing he could do for his boss. It never occurred to him that his boss might not care jack shit about the ring and that his own life was by far more important. That Tsuna cared about his well-being, not just as a subordinate but as a friend, and wanted him to survive so that they could go back to doing friend things together, not as Family but as family. And it’s heartbreaking because he did not understand that, and it’s heartbreaking because of what that lack of understanding implies. But it’s also beautiful at the same time because this is the moment when all of that starts to change. It’s when he does start to understand, even if he still doesn’t get why, yet. And the fact that he makes the decision to live, and he does it not just because it’s what Tsuna wants, but because it’s what he wanted it too, he just didn’t realize until then that there were other people who were okay with that. “Oh you mean I don’t have to get myself blown up? You guys want me back so we can be gay mafias together? Oh, okay. ;_;” He wants to see those fireworks with Tsuna and the others. And now he knows that they want him there too. Which makes this the most triumphant scene of someone collapsing on their face half-dead in history. Seriously. This is hands-down my favorite scene in the series, Academy Award Winner of BEST FEELS, and if you don’t like it then FIGHT ME MOTHERFUCKER.
otp for them (romantic or otherwise)
Yeah despite my endless rambling just now about the decidedly 2759 scene above, my OTP is 8059, as mentioned in the post before this. BECAUSE THAT’S HOW I ROLL. I mean, I ship the mafia brot3, definitely—805927, it is ALL GOOD. But I’ll always have a special place in my heart for Yamamoto/Gokudera because to me, Yamamoto is the character that sees Gokudera the way that Gokudera sees Tsuna. Which is to say that he sees all of Gokudera, the good and the bad, and he doesn’t flinch from any of it and he adores Gokudera all the more for it. Angry!Dera is hilarious, determined!Gokudera is awesome and Yamamoto will tag-team with that in a heartbeat, and happy!Gokudera makes Yamamoto EXTRA SUPER HAPPY, which for Yamamoto basically means that he will have an aura of rainbows and ponies around him. Because Gokudera is my favorite, the pairing I most approve of for him is the one that involves the Nice Boy who cares about him a lot and is also practically perfect in every way. And who is also my other favorite. I mean, it’s not really a mystery or anything why I ship them. XD
my endgame of choice
BEST CONSIGLIERE. FEARED RIGHT HAND. LEADER OF MEN. TSUNDERE BIG BROTHER TO LAMBOS AND I-PINS. HEADCANON SAYS HE DATES YAMAMOTO FOR A LITTLE WHILE AND THEN BREAKS UP WITH HIM AND HAS A THING WITH HARU FOR A LITTLE WHILE, BUT THEN I’M NOT SURE WHAT HAPPENS AFTER THAT, BECAUSE I’M FUCKING INDECISIVE AND I SHIP THE HELL OUT OF 5986 ALSO. MAYBE A THREESOME HAPPENS, OR MAYBE HARU BREAKS UP WITH HIM TO GO BE LESBIANS WITH KYOKO, AND GOKUDERA GETS BACK TOGETHER WITH YAMAMOTO AGAIN. IDK. BUT I JUST WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY AND AWESOME, AND WHATEVER HAPPENS, YOU CAN BE SURE I’LL CAPSLOCK ABOUT IT.
my response to fandom’s attitude towards them
Fandom loves him too! No problems with the fandom. I have met so many other lovely people who also share my problem with having too many Gokudera feels, which is AWESOME because I don’t feel like I am totally alienating any and all poor unwitting people who stumble across my KHR reviews and stay for the lulz and then one day are just suddenly blindsided by paragraphs and paragraphs about Gokudera. (IT HAPPENS, OKAY, SOMETIMES I JUST CAN’T CONTROL IT.) Hopefully at least some of them don’t hate me for it lol.